A sunny reminder

Long ago now since it was summer...

That was the message sent along with this charming picture of me wrestling.. something?.. on the beach this summer. Nice to see some sunny pics though! It's gettin dark here up north before it barely gets time for dawn it feels like.. But soon comes the snow!

Then I'm happy again!

Did get some good work done in school today. Even when we didn't have a lesson through the whole day we were still there at 9 am - how dilligent aren't we?? Didn't do shit thought as soon as I got home... hrm.. 8 days to go till the exam!

Am still feelin dumped which now is mostly annoying. I'm dreading the exam. I'm thinkin about going to grandmothers country house this weekend in the vain hope I will get a rush of will to study and get a massive heap of studyin done. Or if not, maybe just a quiet weekend with my family is enough (not for my grade though, that I'm quite sure of...). I love that I've been spending some more time with Nettan, there have not been far enough of that for the past year, with me being away when she was pregnant and all. I'm hopin Fio will come over this week, maybe I can get Nettan and Ellan over aswell, that would be absolutely awesome.

Oh, ten past twelwe. Happy birthday Mange! Hope you have a good un old man ;)

Now the little lass was heading for bed...

Sunday evening

Today I've been cleanin my whole flat. Not too fun job but needed to be done. And now - finally - it is nice and clean. Now I'm just gonna watch Criminal Minds (I love the geek, thats an appeallin intellect if any). Then it's an early start tomorrow. Am gonna meet my classmates tomorrow and hopefully get tons of school work done. I havn't done even half as much this last week as I'd hope I'd done. So better get to it now then I guess...

Hectic day and good ol friends.

Had the alarm set saturday morning to get an early-ish start. Mum and me met up with one of her best friends Seidi, her son Ted (age 3) and daughter Marléne who is my age (our mum enjoyed their pregnancies together - Marléne and I are born five days apart) and her two kids Julia (2 yrs) and her little brother Jamie (1 year). So as a whole big extended family we all went to the 'All about food and wine' trade fair. Which was crowded, absolute tons of people. This has however never held my mum back, she loves being in the midst of a big crowd. And with her best friend at her side they were havin the time of their lifes. I thought to help Marléne out a bit by lookin after the kids so she could enjoy herself. In hindsight I can easily asses that there are many vastly more suitable enviroments to do this than this particular one. Only thing savin me there were my slight tendencies for being a control freak. Oh, and you wont be popular tryin to maneouver a twin trolley in an already over crowded hall. So after several hours the mums were tired after havin tried all different wines and strollin around and I were absolutely exhausted from lookin after the kids, pushin the trolley, carryin kids, mindin the mums. The resemblance to a sheepheardin dog - I felt - were strikin.
On the train home I called up Nettan and got invited over. How could we survive without our friends who knows exactly what it is we need? When I got there Nettan had taken out some dinner for me and we had a lovely - relaxin! - evening. Me and Nettan sat and with some co-operatin fed baby Ellan her dinner. And when she had fallen asleep me Nettan and Emil sat and chatted in the sofa lazilly watchin some Bond movie. Great evening.

Monday

Am doing the laundry now, which is sooooooo boring! Sigh. Will def make sure to get a washin machine to the next flat I move into.

Another very nice day has passed (these do tend to have be in direct correlation to effective work done - none!).. This one spent in my role as auntie to Ellan. Me, baby Ellan and Nettan went for some light shopping (Nettan bought a new pair of shoes) and then to Ikea. Nice day.

Monday evening is dog night. I watch dog whisperer then usually retort to goin through the usual dog sites on the internet, thinkin about 'my' dogs Lukas, Miller and Marlon. And generally really misses the companionship of havin dogs around. This particular subject has been raised many times in various social constellations. The way I see it, either you are a dog person, then it's already under your skin, or you're not. I definately am and can't wait untill I can take home new companions. I still hope to make my trip to Spain and SOS Animal shelter this summer, volunteering to help out for a few weeks.

Oh, those sunday walks along the beach... bloody freezin.

Wasn't really up to much today. Went for a swim then met up with Fio and we had a nice walk, even along the beach. Looked better than it felt though, a bit too windy. We concluded that it would be Fio's dream to have a nice flat overlookin the water, whereas I would find it a bit too depressin at time, preferring trees as a view (that's what you get for being raised in a family of gardeners..)

The evening I have spent readin Last Chance Saloon (again...). That's the best part with being a girl. You can curl up in foetal position readin feelgood chicklit, listen to sad-FM and stuff your face with chocolate and neatly blame it all on oestrogen. Not that I actually achieved all of that. The readin part def, but not all curled up (makes your neck hurt after a while), the music was tonight limited in pityness to Goo Goo Dolls (marginally better atleast) and I mostly ate fruit (had some chocolate on standby though, just in case). But that's not the point though... The point is that we could do it and still get away with it. Some women manages to have their period/pms/random oestrogen outburts several times a month. Only men who has not thought the whole thing through question this. They rarely does it again after that.
I try and tell my brother these things, educate him in the female physche. He's not always appreciative of the lessons. But he's now coming along; he's learned A) always to ask if he should bring along a coke zero for me when he's coming over and B) stopped searching for a logical reasoning to womens actions. I think he will do fine...

I also found out that Ryan opposed to what I thought was in fact not at all going to Stockholm as claimed but rather movin to Alaska again. Not all very suprising, but think I would preferred havin read it in a letter instead of a public anouncement. But I guess not.

I'm havin a good mate over this week for dinner. And considering us in this autumn darkness that currently rules the weather probably also wine. She's battling with tryin to straighten out her love life, currently juggling emotions for not only one man at a time. Wheras ice woman over here approaches the matter from the other angle, not proned to feel much for most men crossing her path. We thought toghether we could level things up a bit...

Haha, Dylan, I imagine you have comments and spontaneous thoughts to this. You are free to post, I'm tryin as you have of me, takin a note from others. Apparently I'm sometimes (...) so closed up not even my friends understands whats going on (damn, I really DO like understatements though...) so now I'm tryin to do better. Evolve. Be a better person. Grow. So I'm trashin all my thoughts out loud in script. Here's my heart and sould. Please feel free to grind them into hamburgers. (Grey's Anatomy, the part about intimacy)

Halloween continues...

Ironically enough I woke up at Grandfather's with my eyes hurtin. So I hadto leave the car and go home and take my lenses out. Bein so sunny outside I had to wear sunglasses, luckilly I'm still cool enough to pull that off even in november... hahaha.... anyway. After rejecting Halloween invites I still manage to keep sense of Halloween high - I'm on the floor infront of the tv like a blond little red eyed poltergeist... Even the tv is in on it too! Actin up, the picture jumpin and whatnot...

Happy Halloween everybody...